再见了…… 后胎


哈!竟然让YJ她快我一步,她已经把我们在上个星期旅行的文章发在自己的部落各了!
没关系,那我就提一提另一边更细节的那一段的“精彩部分”吧!

上个星期日傍晚回到家,身体已经很疲累,却不想错过当天所发生的事情。所以,的是当时回到家,带着重重的眼皮写下旅后感。可惜的是,我当时因为写到一半的文章,因为眼皮过重,让我毫不知觉地长时间按下“backspace”按钮……
突醒来时……
啊!!!却太迟……
大部分文章都 undo 不回,好可惜。当时的我,再重写了好几次(因为同样的事情一再发生),结果撑不下去了,8点多倒下即睡在床上,一直到天亮。
这种疲惫,我只能够用“真的累倒毫无知觉的随时停顿下来,都能够入睡,不管站坐还是躺着”来形容。


2012年10月21日 - 星期天
为后胎哀悼

小红突然的爆胎,我用体力推了好一段距离的摩多,换来了疲惫的身体。离开高速公路后,遇见的贵人实在让我找不到理由不去做乐于助人的事情。

说再见前,他们的最后一张的合照
在我们的马六甲之旅之后,回家路途中的高速公路上,很不幸的轮胎很不争气的在我们淋着大雨赶路回家的路途中,它给了我下了停下的禁令!
时速从100kmph落到60kmph,它再为我坚持5公里的路之后,时速再也无法超过10kmph,往前速度无法再快,眼看时速表针在摩多还在往前时,没有上升的意愿。
到底离开修摩多店还有多久,天色告诉我它快下雨了,渐渐暗下来的它告诉我无法再为我坚持忍雨多久……
快呀…快呀…… 内胎从轮胎里逃了出来,在我继续前进时卡住了我的轮辋,仿佛在告诉着我说“它已经不能在继续了”。
骑在四轮驱动哥背上的它

我毫不忍心地将它从轮胎里拔开,好让体力快用尽的我继续赶路……
好心疼它为我牺牲了这么多那么久,我却无法好好地在这最后的一刻对它好一些……
它与我共度大学时光 、与VV拍拖四处半流浪的日子 、校园的活动高峰期、  实习期、为旅行筹钱的打工日子、大学毕业、长途摩多之旅、在KL的4个月左右的工作期和连续不断的周末“探索”之旅,如今,它在华人电影展的马六甲摩多旅与我告终…

再见了…
自从你的出现以来,是我“乱飞”得最自由的时候,过得最有意义的时刻…
如今你的过去,有几位贵人的相助下,他们心地善良的让他们的“粗壮四轮驱动哥”,送你走完那最后一程,但愿这就是让你走得最舒服的方式…

你载了我那么久,这次就由别人载你,让你至少感受一下我们同时一起被载的时候吧!再见了!


在高速公路上饱受爆胎之苦,有过如此痛苦经验的人不会想要有第二次这样的经验的!
为了避免这样的意外,有多一个摩多骑士同伴做照应是应该的!

好了,现在痛过了,下次要做这样的摩多旅行,备用内胎、轮胎充气泵和“17号”將不會是被遺忘的對象!

加上在別無選擇下,別人要“汤水鱼”的话,自己也别无选择……
因为,经过这次的教训,我也别无选择,而且我认为…… 我已被“汤”了一笔。


注释:
“粗壮四轮驱动哥” - 在图里面的那部Hilux,是我提过的贵人(好心uncle)的车子
17号 - 新买的17型号扳手 (spanner),因为新买的,所以我为他取名为“17号”
被“汤水鱼” - 被有心人士用比平时更昂贵的价钱卖个消费者,可是消费者别无选择/无知市价下,进行该项买卖。

我的工作旅行

昨晚,吃完饭后,我们比赛看谁先到家。结果我赢了!
她开车,我骑电单车,同时间起步。
我们是多么的享受这种生活方式,只要是自己喜欢的,没有人管制,不需要任何交代。
到了终点,互相争论着,谁才是最快的~
哈哈!好玩!
我被旅行激發的作品
静下来时,我便想到,自己一天內的10小时,已经贡献给私人商业界,只剩下的几个小时,才是自己的。

换钱嘛… $_$

在这之前,自己对商业界没有什么好感,总觉得他们凡事以钱(正也是他们的目标)为先,可我如今却在为这个社会贡献精力,牺牲时间…
曾经,自己在精神和思想上的训练,仿佛已经毫无用处,仿佛完全被遗忘…
多么可悲呀!

难不成,要完全脱离这个商业社会吗?
我会选择慢慢来……

工作之余,找乐子
喜欢任何形式的旅行的我,常常抱着一种怪念头,那就是 "工作旅行"…
你以为是"working holiday"吗?
坦白告诉你,你是错的!
我所谓的怪念头的工作旅行就是"做到自己觉得够了就换",换工作!
不管是气够了、学够了、等够了、呆够了、爽够了、受够了… 还是赚够了,换!
一直找到符合自己前进的目标时,才慢下那种“猖狂”的旅行!
毕竟,我还有一些些的时间“自由行”嘛!
没有一个清楚的方向时,但是我还是看得清什么去向是不属于自己的!
结果,只能“沦落”到继续旅行去探索吧!
啊补甜(要不然),你去旅行来干嘛?
我还癫到可以凡事都看成是一种旅行呢!
大家也快乐旅行去吧!

阅读,是我的心灵之旅
阅读和写作,是我在思想上的旅行。
书本就是带领我到世界各地的交通工具,书中的内容就是四处的景观。

书本一打开,开始阅读,仿佛直接抵达目的地。把当下的思维,投入在文字内。
情绪与思维就跟着内容的路径而变化……







我把阅读当作心灵之旅

吃,也可以变成我的旅行…… :) 
我永远相信,“不一定要贵才能够吃到好的!”

我有史以来,吃过最好吃的菜头糕,
它没有让人吃第一口就反胃的一整块面粉块。
味道口口到位,每一口都是精华。
想念……
麻坡- 菜头糕
杂果冰……
没有第二个地方可以找到这种杂果冰了!
新鲜切好的水果,分量是满满的一碗,
还有,是在便宜的价钱……
自从吃过它以来,我就一直对接下来吃过的同类,失望!
怡保- 杂果冰 (糖水街)
从小就爱吃的蛋挞,
丰足的馅和浓厚的蛋香味,加上酥软适中的口感……
这里卖得很普遍,但是,无法让我忘怀。
停不了的美食之旅,怎么能够“等有钱才享用”呢?

心灵之旅
以耳朵聆听世界

在这网际网络的世界,每一个国家的电台都可以从网上直接收听(tuneinGoogle Chrome plugin-radio),只要有网络,链接去全世界根本就不是问题。
因为网络,我无时无刻即可连上任何一个想“听见”的国家,立刻活在他们当下的生活。听别人国家动向,了解他们对事情的处事方式,聆听他们最近受重视的话题,听他们的思想。这种以耳朵体验他们的生活方式,让我也觉得活在马来西亚的我,随时都可以“飞"去任何一个国家,想去台湾就转向台湾,要去香港就选择香港,之后美国、英国、澳洲等,与他们活在同一个环境下。

本身最喜欢的,还是英国电台,BBC4,他们关心全世界的部分课题,不管是经济、政治、各种政策上的公开辩论、电影或书籍介绍与讨论、音乐人分享到各种经验分享。就以这一个电台相比,就足以让我觉得自己,我们的国家真的还有很长远的路要走,才能够到达的文明社会。我是多么希望我国的名字可以常出现在他们那注重务实的讨论当中,可是我国却还未有这种影响力,反而,我还觉得,这种所谓的影响力还在地减少中呢!

从新书作者、文化工作者、人权组织、在职相关人士辩论国家政策、灾难受害者的经历,或者,到难以听见也无法从本地电台中听到的一些本地人认为肮脏的职业人士生活经历分享,听别人如何去尊重/看重每一个会思考的人类的想法。


基于工作(时间)和金钱上的限制,想常常到处去旅行前,得考虑自己的假期是否足够让自己去不同的国家,这样旅行起来,让总觉得被绑死,没隐。
所以,借着阅读的方式,从网络、从书籍去了解想见识的国家,去认识别人国家的历史和思想,去见识地球的另一端。
当去体验的机会来临时,再去体验去感觉。

Outward Bound in Lumut, with them

I just went to a company trip, a team building trip in Lumut, Perak.
It's a complete "back to nature" training I have ever experienced.
Together with the rules they set, which is no electronic device or any kind of attention distracting object is allow in order to "encourage" participants spending time communicate with each other.

I became very dark in merely 6 hours of sailing
So then the trip was a complete torture to me.
Spending days without gaming is alright with me, spending days without reading and writing,
is really a hard time to me. Every so often, I do reading or writing,
spending days without it caused me keep blaming the "compulsory" system made by my boss.

I passed the 4 days without choice, and left all my reading material and learning stuff behind. All I did was to "enjoy" the torment. Forced myself enjoy the torment by finding out the good from the bad part of this trip. No matter how much I try to escape, the final result would be the same, unless I quit or fall sick before the trip. And so, I took this trip as my "mind travelling trip" for myself, which it's a travel that absolutely away from the exhaustively informative world, to enjoy the other part of my "disconnected" mind.


West view of Outward Bound, Lumut
Outward Bound in Lumut has exists for 55 years in Malaysia.
Let's call this a tormenting trip instead of nicely named 'Team Building'.

I can't see much thing we'd done there, but the only main thing we do in the early four days trip were to prepare ourselves for sailing and the survival camping in forth day.

That's what made me upset on the first two days as I was just wasting my time, and thirst for leaving. What I thought was leaving...

At the sailing
Finally, the sailing day had come. That was the day I find myself feeling happier in the whole trip, I stop crying for leaving deep inside my heart.
I enjoy sailing completely without the help of gasoline powered engine with the great teamwork, and learning hard to adapt myself to the vile experience on sailing to our 6 hours or 20km++ distance to sail.

Lecture night before sailing
We first learned to study how the sea water flow, and what to do as wind direction and sea water flow keep changing all along the way. It depends on luck very much which it determines how comfort or bad is your sailing experience. 

For those who can't adapt to the vile situation in boat, with the help of waving effect caused by surge, I just can evaluate the effect with the highest rank of "most serious motion sickness I have ever had in my life"! It's so uncomfortable until I kept think about dying...

Everybody no longer spending anymore energy for any other unwanted motion, every single energy  count, as everybody had almost completely exhausted. Energy efficiently spent as the weather was very hot and dry.

As I remember, while we're sailing, everybody's given an apple each person, and that's the most juicy and delicious apple that ever made me so grateful about being able to eat one. That's our only "energy food" we had with us in the boat after sailing for a few hours.

Team members who couldn't stand the motion sickness was keep vomit seriously as the sea wave getting stronger in waving our boat. That's the very first time I've experienced motion sicknesses in my life, and I never think about trying another one again in future. I like adventure, this experience is considered as reaching one of what I am chasing for so far... The feeling of danger while I still can cope it!

The while we sail
Our instructor left us to control the whole sailing boat at the middle of the way, so we could learn to be independent from his command. And that's the time he tested how we teamed up to get something done!!


Finally, we've reached our campsite at 3pm. The rest of time would be busy time for campsite setting, cooking and enough firewood for whole night of burning.

Setting up tent
The cooking at the campsite
All ingredient and utensils were provided by Outward Bound, and the soft-shell clams were collected at the sea side. The only things left to do was to cook. 

Sunset
Campfire to keep mosquito away
Evening time, it's time to take last few pictures before the night go really dark.
We younger group stand awake without sleeping for that night, we spent the night to chat, for some talking game, and sing part of us can no longer stand the sleepiness.

And so, the night just end that way until a tragedy happened...
I felt really pain in at my stomach, I failed to bear the pain, and I must do something... to dig a hole for the business. I was 5th person who queued for the emergency tragedy, and everyone who had eaten the dinner last night had the same problem, diarrhea caused by food poisoning. For 15 of us, we dug nearly 30 holes (one person twice) in the short morning from 4am to 7am, because there's no toilet at all, digging hole was the only way for those 'businesses'. That's a disgusting experience I expected not to be happened, it's really painful until you can't stand it for seconds.

Our departure time was previously planned at 7am, but boat sailing's biggest enemy, the rainstorm reach our campsite. Fortunately, the rainstorm last just around 30 mins, we rush every stuffs to the boat and depart as soon as possible as most of us didn't feel very well of the food poisoning. It's so bad, no photo available for that time, because rain was to heavy to risk my camera for any photo as my gears were all well packed to avoid rain.

Badge of Teamwork & Perseverance
After all, we reach Ourward Bound successfully and landed safe. That ended my enjoyable experience there. Our instructor, Azmin, award us a badge of best team he has ever trained so far, because did good teamwork and we could stand the hard part of the expedition with optimistic way.

With this diplomatic recognition, I would still say "No" to the same trip like this, but I'll enjoy it only if it's just a boat sailing activity. Because sailing is fun...
Sailing with the right team or right persons would be the best!

No second time please... unless you are the right person to sail with, otherwise, it'll eventually ends up with nothing after all. However, it's still a nice trip to learn how to sail and the knowledge of the life at sea.

P/S: No matter how luxury or how tough is it, right persons are the most important element in the whole story, that is the only element determine how you enjoy every moment you being with them!


Finally, best part of this activity:
- You learn how to "survive" without any kind of electronic devices to entertain you and for you to kill time. All you got is to have fun(talk) with your teammates.
No reading material, no music/movie player, no game, no writing, no reading... All you left is a mouth to talk, and how about the topic to be chat about?
It's fun if those teammates have same vision or interest as you do, else, you suffer a lot from being alone deep I your heart.
- To learn how to survive the life at the sea and island without electronic device.
- Test yourself by seeing how long can you stand without doing anything you like or want.


I met a man...
As this age of mine here in my country, who don't has a clear vision about their future. And so, this is the time we try to find out the answer of "what is the meaning of life?"...

The coach, Azman, I met here is the guy who gave me a different inspiration about "life".
He love nature very much until he chose to work as a coach that doesn't highly paid. He shared his life which even he's worked hard enough until he gets sick frequently, the fixed pay of less than RM2k a month, was just barely enough for daily expenses, and no extra money left for anything else.

Though the pay is low, but working as a "nature life" trainer, it is what he really wanted, he said, he is doing it and enjoying it now.
So what? It's his dream, he trains people(mostly people grown in the city) the way to live in an old-fashioned way. He can live by the sea, the knowledge to survive in the sailboat, mountain and forest. It's the life he desired, and he loves it.

Yeah, he knows how he can makes his life meaningful... and not to blame...
Yes, true, he clearly know what he really want for his life.
At the same time, I am still struggling and looking for a meaningful life while I am already 24, how long do I left for this "searching" state...?

心境先静一静

有时候,给自己一点喘息的空间,比一味咬牙硬撑更加健康。 当生活的压力让人动弹不了,可是地板上还散满了玩具, 在这时勉强自己在满腹情绪下去清理,只会让负面能量扩散到整个家。 我们究竟看重什么? 我们希望孩子从我们的内心挣扎中接收到怎样的讯息? 让客厅暂时凌乱不是什么大问题。 先停下...